Thursday, May 05, 2011


Things are getting more awkward day by day but I'm trying very hard to conceal it..
and I know its not right to check on other's privacy by checking pictures and msgs and all while the person was fast a sleep. [pretty sorry on what I have done.]

But I still did that cos I have the strong urge to know what had happened to that person , making the person to so miserable and tried out smoking alone with some beers few days ago. Thankful that I was informed, and the person felt sorry of it ? cos we have made deals about that. Idk if I have too much things across my mind, but it was so crazy when the person went back to hometown as I won't be seeing the person for couple of days which were like years to me. gosh, I never felt this way before. +.+

Life is getting complicated much but its getting more fun that I have expected.
Hope the person will go through and be happy again, can't wait to celebrate birthday on November,2011
[I hope I can join the celebrations] 

They said : "When we are dreaming alone it is only a dream. When we are

dreaming with others, it is the beginning of reality."

* We met thousands of people through out the year , but nOt everyone will be the one for us, only one and the Only One will do. 



Wednesday, January 19, 2011


I really somebody to be my listener ,right now,silent one!!!

I couldn't believe what had happened on my woman, I wish I just could be by her side, right now.
and screw that b*tch who doesn't even care about my woman, and that FREAKING man,

Please make me to love both of you even more!

Daily Teaching : Day115
"May the joy be with me"
~Yes I need that right now!~


I really somebody to be my listener ,right now,silent one!!!

I couldn't believe what had happened on my woman, I wish I just could be by her side, right now.
and screw that b*tch who doesn't even care about my woman, and that FREAKING man,

Pls don't make me hate you guys.

Daily Teaching : Day115
"May the joy be with me"
~Yes I need that right now!~

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Another harsh words

Again you blame everything on me,It isn't really all my fault,do you think I have that much strength to control everything??
I had to be sincered in everything,I had to be honest when the time is right. I cannot alway cover things for you.
Remember once I have covered for you, the next thing I knew I was in hospitalised. See the consequences?

So now, you texted me and blaming everything from A-Z on me.
Well, this time I won;t be explaining anything since you don't even want to listen to my explanations which are just denial to you. GO ahead.

I feel old and tired in this matter .
I will be as silent as I can!
I don't think you have learnt from your lesson.
Rebellion much. and stop using sabotage!
I gained nothing from being like your so called "sabotaging" in fact much things to worry about.


Friday, October 08, 2010

negative thoughts

I have been "abandoned" The Secret within my summer break. I just realised somehow, my negative thoughts are getting worse and worse day by day, cumulated for more than 90 days. I have became an unhappy. I just got into a quarrel with my sister, embarrassed on my own. I have lots of negative thoughts that every night I brought them all into my dreams. However, what has done is done. I have no turning back the clock nor what.

I read thought The Secret , it soothes me as long as I flipped through Day 101.yes, I need to replay all the good  moment of the days before going into slumber land. I need to make my mind busy with games so that those thoughts will not not coming back to me.

Bless me with happiness and that I won;t have all those negative thoughts. I knew my words had hurt her much but still I really do love her ,and I have no courage to say so. Counting down the days that she's leaving me,it sucks and that she never will realise how I feel, cos she always assumes my emotional behaviour towards my thoughts. I will let time to "rinse" the anger off that we have had on each other. I shall make a move forwards before things get worse and no turning back.
*still there's nothing much I can do except reading more The Secret and adapt more on what I should be doing,which is the right thing, and be a better person.

Thanks alot ,tall man for The Secret .It's the best and useful gift that I have had over the 20 years.


Saturday, May 08, 2010

tHE Continuous

I was bogged down with tonnes of homeworks : presentations and assignments :((
that's why the ignorance on my blog :((
*I apologise to anyone that never fail to look forward on my blog,and keep visiting my blog.
*Sincerely a big thank you and hugs from me*

Bee, my closed mate asked me randomly in a fine day whether I was still continue reading "The Secret"
She said it managed to "shape" me well :))

Day 81
... Remember that you cannot think good thoughts and feel bad, because your feelings are the result if your thoughts.
-Lots of incidents occurred throughout the April. And I admit that I have faced some matters. I guess it happened because of my "greediness" in having good and bad thoughts at the same time. I shall take it as my lessons.

Day 83
Feel the joy inside you more than you react to outside circumstances, and you will change the outside circumstances.
*Joy attracts Joy*
Day 84
In every word you use, there is a power germ which expands....direction your word indicates& ultimately develops into physical expression.
...Repeat the word joy secrectly and persistently,and emphatically.

I shall continue my reading later..


Monday, April 12, 2010

♥ :)) ♥ ((: ♥

I reckon that I miss so much on secretlysamantha. I have been not updating for weeks. 
But I have done some flipping + reading on The Secret at least 5 per week :)) 
Just that I hardly find a suitable mood and right time to blog about.

Life is such a rollercoaster to me.
Everyday is different.
Every breathe that I have taken ,are precious.
and I am thankful of everything I have had and gone through.
There are so many things to be thankful of.
*best & awful time*

♥Day 64♥
We can never bring anything to us unless we are grateful for what we have. In fact, if somebody was completely and utterly grateful for everything,they would have ask for anything...
That is the power of GRATITUDE

♥Day 66♥
Do not worry about the negative thoughts, and do not try to control them. 
All you have to do is begin to think good thoughts each day....
As you begin to think good thoughts you will attract more and more good thoughts,
and eventually the good thoughts will wipe out the negative thoughts altogether

♥Day 69♥
When you ask for happiness and a beautiful life,ask not just for you, but for everyone.
... :)))♥

♥Day 70♥
" If a man' mind becomes pure
his surroundings will also become pure."

BUDDHA (c. 563-c.483 BC)

♥Day 72♥
If you have " needing money" in your vibration, then you will keep attracting  needing money.
You have to find a way of being happy NOW, feeling good NOW,
and being joy NOW, without the money, because those great feelings are how you will feel with the money.

Money doesn't bring happiness,   BUT
Happiness brings money.

♥Day 77♥
" Man is what he believes."

ANTON CHEKHOV (1860-1904)
The Notebook of Anton Chekhov

♥Day 79♥
Our natural state of being is joy.
It takes so much energy to think negative thoughts,to speak negative thoughts,
to speak negative words,and to feel miserable.
The easy path is good thoughts,good words,and good deeds.

Take the easy path
[I do

... The greatest human beings who have ever lived showed us the way with gratitude.
and by their example became shining lights in our history.
Surely that's why Eistein said " Thank you" hundreds of times every single day.

RIP ,eldest uncle