Another harsh words

Again you blame everything on me,It isn't really all my fault,do you think I have that much strength to control everything??
I had to be sincered in everything,I had to be honest when the time is right. I cannot alway cover things for you.
Remember once I have covered for you, the next thing I knew I was in hospitalised. See the consequences?

So now, you texted me and blaming everything from A-Z on me.
Well, this time I won;t be explaining anything since you don't even want to listen to my explanations which are just denial to you. GO ahead.

I feel old and tired in this matter .
I will be as silent as I can!
I don't think you have learnt from your lesson.
Rebellion much. and stop using sabotage!
I gained nothing from being like your so called "sabotaging" in fact much things to worry about.

Ciao~

negative thoughts

I have been "abandoned" The Secret within my summer break. I just realised somehow, my negative thoughts are getting worse and worse day by day, cumulated for more than 90 days. I have became an unhappy. I just got into a quarrel with my sister, embarrassed on my own. I have lots of negative thoughts that every night I brought them all into my dreams. However, what has done is done. I have no turning back the clock nor what.

I read thought The Secret , it soothes me as long as I flipped through Day 101.yes, I need to replay all the good  moment of the days before going into slumber land. I need to make my mind busy with games so that those thoughts will not not coming back to me.

Bless me with happiness and that I won;t have all those negative thoughts. I knew my words had hurt her much but still I really do love her ,and I have no courage to say so. Counting down the days that she's leaving me,it sucks and that she never will realise how I feel, cos she always assumes my emotional behaviour towards my thoughts. I will let time to "rinse" the anger off that we have had on each other. I shall make a move forwards before things get worse and no turning back.
*still there's nothing much I can do except reading more The Secret and adapt more on what I should be doing,which is the right thing, and be a better person.

Thanks alot ,tall man for The Secret .It's the best and useful gift that I have had over the 20 years.

Ciao~

tHE Continuous

I was bogged down with tonnes of homeworks : presentations and assignments :((
that's why the ignorance on my blog :((
*I apologise to anyone that never fail to look forward on my blog,and keep visiting my blog.
*Sincerely a big thank you and hugs from me*

Bee, my closed mate asked me randomly in a fine day whether I was still continue reading "The Secret"

She said it managed to "shape" me well :))

Day 81
... Remember that you cannot think good thoughts and feel bad, because your feelings are the result if your thoughts.
-Lots of incidents occurred throughout the April. And I admit that I have faced some matters. I guess it happened because of my "greediness" in having good and bad thoughts at the same time. I shall take it as my lessons.

♥Day 83♥
Feel the joy inside you more than you react to outside circumstances, and you will change the outside circumstances.

*Joy attracts Joy*

*I-AM-JOY*

Day 84

In every word you use, there is a power germ which expands....direction your word indicates& ultimately develops into physical expression.

...Repeat the word joy secrectly and persistently,and emphatically.

I shall continue my reading later..

Ciao~

♥ :)) ♥ ((: ♥

I reckon that I miss so much on secretlysamantha. I have been not updating for weeks. 
But I have done some flipping + reading on The Secret at least 5 per week :)) 
Just that I hardly find a suitable mood and right time to blog about.


Life is such a rollercoaster to me.
Everyday is different.
Every breathe that I have taken ,are precious.
and I am thankful of everything I have had and gone through.
There are so many things to be thankful of.
*best & awful time*

♥Day 64♥

We can never bring anything to us unless we are grateful for what we have. In fact, if somebody was completely and utterly grateful for everything,they would have ask for anything...
That is the power of GRATITUDE

♥Day 66♥

Do not worry about the negative thoughts, and do not try to control them. 
All you have to do is begin to think good thoughts each day....
As you begin to think good thoughts you will attract more and more good thoughts,
and eventually the good thoughts will wipe out the negative thoughts altogether
:))

♥Day 69♥

When you ask for happiness and a beautiful life,ask not just for you, but for everyone.
... :)))♥

♥Day 70♥

" If a man' mind becomes pure, 

his surroundings will also become pure."

BUDDHA (c. 563-c.483 BC)

♥Day 72♥

If you have " needing money" in your vibration, then you will keep attracting  needing money.
You have to find a way of being happy NOW, feeling good NOW,
and being joy NOW, without the money, because those great feelings are how you will feel with the money.

Money doesn't bring happiness,   BUT

Happiness brings money.

♥Day 77♥

" Man is what he believes."

ANTON CHEKHOV (1860-1904)

The Notebook of Anton Chekhov

♥Day 79♥

Our natural state of being is joy.

It takes so much energy to think negative thoughts,to speak negative thoughts,

to speak negative words,and to feel miserable.

The easy path is good thoughts,good words,and good deeds.

Take the easy path

[I do♥] 

♥Day80♥

... The greatest human beings who have ever lived showed us the way with gratitude.

and by their example became shining lights in our history.

Surely that's why Eistein said " Thank you" hundreds of times every single day.

:))♥

RIP ,eldest uncle

♥

Ciao~

♥ gratitude ♥

Day 57
-I am grateful that I own The Secret ,as it has told me to do something important  -> listing the gratitude out.

-I'm grateful that I still have parents, siblings and friends support and love me affectionately behind :)) ♥

-I'm grateful that I have someone[s] around me to guide me whenever I made mistakes.

-I'm grateful that I have someone[s] that tend to hurt me at time,making me to stay stronger..

-I'm grateful that I have someone[s] that make me realize everything before I make any step forward.

-I'm grateful that I have someone[s] walk in and out of my life.One door closed and another just opened  :))

-I'm grateful that I have someone[s] that love talking to me anytime.

-I'm grateful that I have someone[s] that enjoy clicking with me for being who I am. 

-I'm grateful that I have someone[s] that mind to share the secrets with me.

-I'm grateful that I have someone[s] that can stand my tantrum,whining :))[at times], my manja.

-I'm grateful that I have someone[s] that still remember and care of me although they are miles&miles away from me.

-I'm grateful that I have someone[s] that are able to make me annoy and happy at the same times.

-I'm grateful that I have someone[s] that consider me as someone who is important in their lives,not an anonymous

-I'm grateful that I have met someone nice,true friends in my early second decades.


-I'm grateful that I have made some important decisions right.

-I'm grateful that I have tried my best to fulfill my needs.

-I'm grateful that I have managed to stop some of the negative thoughts whenever it approaches me.

-I'm grateful that today I am still alive ,writing these lists of things that I am grateful for.

Ciao~

A video

I was tagged by fafa in facebook. A video that reminding people to remember to love their parents before it's too late :'(( My tears were dropping from one droplet to like "buckets" The speaker 's speech made me speechless. I was totally fascinated by it and touched

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=378800632887&ref=mf

Fyi,it's in Chinese

Day 54

...Life is mirroring back to you what you are holding inside you.

Day 55

...No -one else can bring negativity into our lives through their thoughts, 

unless we allow our frequency to lower to the same negative frequency as theirs.

Speaking is very much easy than doing it.

It's really a tough task for me, to be the master of myself.

Somehow, as the days pass by, I am almost fully controlling myself rather than being controlled by others.

I am no more so indecisive , at least I can make up my mind now without asking people's opinions or judgments.

*credits to the Secret and mostly to myself & the blessings from the upper part♥ .

*it has answered me ♥

Ciao~

The days

Been busy for the week, classes till 8p.m most of days.
Yesterday ,went off for bowling at Penang Bowling Centre with my friends after 4p.m class.
It was my first every bowling experience :))
my first game,I scored 42,the next game was 49. [not bad for my first attempt]

Andrew left Pg on Wednesday and everything seemed to be so indifferent to me.
Noone there to bug on me, disturbed,annoyed and made me happy at the same time.
All the best for this man,who flies around spontaneously.
I haven't been laughing like crazy for the whole week :((

Day 37

To change our lives,at some point we have to decide that, 

rather than suffer anymore,we are going to live in happiness.

And the only way we can do that is to make decision

to look from things to appreciate ,no matter what.

...And good things begin to appear.

And then more good things,and then more

I appreciate every second that I have ,every breath that I take in and release.
Everyday is a new day, new challenging and memorable .

Day 41

Einstein told us that time is just an illusion. 

When you understand and accept that there is no time,

you can see that whatever you want in the future already exists
..Radiate your desire in your mind, heart and body and see it as here now.

Day 48

There is no force of hate. Hate is simply the absence of love ,

just as darkness is the absence of light.

Poverty is the absence of abundance,

sickness is the absence of health,

and sadness is the absence of joy.

All negativity is simply the absence of something positive.

Day 49

"The aim of life is self-development.

To realize one's nature perfectly -That is what each of us is here for."

OSCAR WILDE (1854-1900)

The Picture of Dorian Guy.

 ______________

"Even if the hopes you started out with are dashed,

hope has to be maintained."
 *Seamus Heaney

 

♥ . ♥

Ciao~

Ethical

-Class from 9a.m till 8 p.m is so FML!! But I have fun after all, not during lunch break in a cafe.Get to know Adrian ,who told me accidentally about sth,made me fussy.
*I have never been enjoying classes since 2008,tho I'm tired for day. :))

-Ethics class was pretty nice, tho the lecturer was with his monotone along the way,but we got to debate,that enlightened me.

-Sir told the whole class tat Alor Star is a rural area and asking whether anyone was from them,and thank to Jo,she pointed on me.FML[Andrew who sat there quietly ,coincidentally also from the "rural"]

-Went maggi goreng with Andrew,Ryan,Jo,Joanna and it was drizzling,but I refused to walk under the drizzle and they have to drive to the mamak near my college, Andrew named me "Princess of Fire" :((
-After mamak, met Mr Ewen with his fluffy hair, and he wished me luck for long hour my classes!! :))

-Went to fill water bottle at the dispenser aftr using the washroom,I didn't know Andrew was waiting for me@.@
Then he came out asking:" what are you doing there for so long? Were you laying eggs there?
Me:" Dude, I am not a CHICKEN ,and I was filling up my empty bottle =.=

I wasn't about to tell how was my day ,and now I ought to draw a situation here.

In short X is still childish for telling the story from a to Z to anyone that might know A. 

*salute*

As X can actually recall the incident back in 2008.

which A couldn't be bother much now.
*till now A & X still barely know each other*
A has tonnes of stuffs in hands to deal with.

Life been a b*tch to A. [the b*tchier ,the merrier]
But perhaps it is counted as part of growing,understand how's the reality out there

Like what theng seng said in his blog 

#Time to learn how to wear suitable mask and get your hands filthy out there.#

Conclusion: I am pretty glad that A has grown up lots cos A used to mad for long like a few days, and made herself moody all the day by those craps. She understands that she has the right to be ethical as everyone include her is abide by ethics of rights by not telling grandmother stories to someone[s] that barely know the situation or X. She knows that she needs to respect the fundamental of human rights and people's need of dignity since X is a human.
___________
*Best friends are friends that can always stand by you, [not when you are wrong] ,mind to care your feeling[by not showing it in public,but through true hearts].
Its a rare group.
I don't really trust the word BEST FRIENDS anymore,just FRIENDS  is good enough.

Ps:I am now trying to be ethical by not mentioning any names in the situation stated above.
Am trying hard to practise virtue ethics here

♥Day 35♥

"The thought manifests as the word. The word manifests as the dead. The dead develops into habit. And the habit hardens into character. So watch the thought and its ways with care. And let it spring from love, born out of concern for all beings. "

BUDDHA(c.563-c.483 BC)

Ciao~

❤ Saturday ❤

Seriously I have a confession to make. I haven't touch THE SECRET for almost a week. I mean touch as in read it. =.= I have some good reasons for myself to escape the feeling of being guilty. Almost everyday along the week,I went out in the morning and back to the hostel at night. Night time,I didn't feel like reading it as I was too tired from classes and hanging outs with friends and revisions. But, still I will keep up the promise made.


I have my SoO class today from 9a.m - 4p.m [extend for an hour for 10 hours replacement classes] I know so gay right,I have classes at Saturday and night classes during the weekdays. Angeline felt that too. so effing gay.


I think I am enjoying SoO  class although I slept for 10 minutes in todays' class. =.= felt bad. 
Mr Rajoo came by a poet who wrote a poem based on what he saw with his eyes.

Situation: Morning,you see a perfect rate woman ,plucking flowers by the side. What is your point of view about that? What will you see firstly?

 And the question was asked to the guys in the class, and most of them were quite shy ,Maybe there were girls in the class[Mr Rajoo's perception] At last , a guy spoke up, first he will see the woman's facial-> hair-> legs. That was basically what NORMAL guys will come upon to in this situation. I was quite disappointed cos I always have the concept that boobs will come first in their mind . I am so wrong about it for the past.

SoO. Love.Friends.♥♥♥

**Put yourself into people's shoes.**

And Mr Rajoo conducted an experiment from the 4 students among us[2 guys & 2 girls] 4 of them have to exchange their shoes and walk around the class. The rule is the girls have to put on the guys shoes so did the guys. I was pretty enjoying myself on that game. Bee thought that I have "problem" for being so gay about it.

Conclusion: Don't blame others when you don't even understand their predicaments. Somehow if you can't take it, just leave them alone and you will be happier on what you have but not on what you don't even have to give any damn on it.

♥Day29 ♥

#When it comes to love relationship, often people think that they want a particular person.But if you think about it deeply, it is not really the particular person that they want.......

Why is it that we think we know more than the one who can see everything?#


♥Day 34 ♥

Think Good thoughts

Speak  Good    words

Take Good  actions.

*These 3 are so powerful that it will bring anything which is out of you mind,you never can expect it!!*

  I am grateful for the day[S] I have been through.

They help alot in shaping ME.

♥ ♥ ♥

Ciao~

SoO

FYI,SoO stands for Sociology of Organisations.
I have this lesson from 9a.m -3p.m today.
I thought it would turn out to be another boring one,
somehow it attracted me.
My lecturer who usually teaches psychology &sociology in Uni[s] said sth that attracted me lots today.

" No matter what bad things you have done to the nature or people, karma will tell ,very soon.

If you have done something bad, trust me , you will get to taste the bad return[s] very fast. 

Don't play with  the NATURE. It's a powerful LAW OF ATTRACTION. 

....What ever you have earned or get[$$], remember to give 10 % back from what you have taken/earned. This can bring more money&happiness into your life. 

Treat your money with values ,not like a trash by squeezing or simply leave it aside.

...Everything that happens has reasons lying in it."

*This is what Day 19 had taught me before: 

 One of the biggest things you can do to change your circumstances around money is to take ten percent of what you receive and give it away.*

DAY 28

"A feeling that greater possessions , no matter of what kind they may be,will of themselves bring contentment or happiness, is a misunderstanding. No person,place,or thing can give you happiness. They may give you cause for happiness and a feeling of contentment , but the Joy of Living comes from within."

It's so true that all the emotions come from within .

Only yourself  are the one deciding how the feelings should be for todays & tomorrows.

It has proven to me today.
I'm feeling contented although I have had 7 hours long lecturers, 4hours long in [forgotten what's the name if the cyber cafe:2nd time experience], dinner at Blue Reef with Pan Seared Salmon,totally delightful.
I woke up at 8.37a.m when I have class at 9a.m today. I was still punctual as in I went to the wrong class cos I wasn't being informed earlier on the changes.There were 10 others in the wrong class too. oh ,well.

Earthquake just hit Chile .Is the world ending soon? 2012 ?!=.=

contented.calm.conscious.

Ciao~

A night.A day.

Bonjour.
Last night, Kor and Nee stopped by my hostel to pass me birthday gifts.
3 of us chatted inside the car for like 1 hour + with the engine on.
Technically , I did most of the talkings as usual.
Later on, I was suffering from sore throat and fluid. =.=
Maybe the fault[s] of chopper board's si chuan noodle or Winter warmers' iced mixed fruit cocktail that I have had in the evening . *sigh*

Day 27
To create your tomorrow, go over your day tonight when you are in bed just before you fall asleep, and feel gratitude for the good moments. If there was something you wanted to happen differently, replay in your mind the way you wanted it to go. As you fall asleep, say " I will sleep deeply and wake up full of energy. Tomorrow is going to be the most beautiful day of my life."

Just in time, it's bed time now ,for me, I have morning class to catch tomorrow,on Saturday.
I will try  hard to go over my day as in my brain is tearing me apart,fluid,sore throat. =.=
Looking at Leo calendar 2010,The  Secret, the bracelet & the butterfly hair accessory ,crystal dolphin& a medium-sized bee girl soft toy,pictures,etc.., make me feel much gratitude than ever for living so long in this world. Now, I have to get rid of these diseases ,if not how am I going to enjoy my tomorrows?!

*Last night,Kor complained that I have too many requests,too demanding esp to..,
I do understand that I have to change this habit by now [give me a break]=.= :))
*She told me,"you will feel better if everything never had happened ,everything starting from 0."
But I feel nothing,just plain not sad,not happy, ordinary.
I feel much better than ever tho I am invaded by diseases.
She just won't believe in me.

I wonder if I am ever.., at least a segment?

or not even a segment?

Good night.

Ciao~

Excuse

I wonder how can some guys[aged between 19-22+] enjoy cyber relationships so much? (They have broke up with the others within 2 months,and they manage to hunt other "preys" to fulfill them.)They make you on cloud nine by flattering in public[online] ,calling you from overseas,telling the whole word that how much they love you, how much they need you when they barely know you or meet you up in person.

Fyi,they get your details through facebook,chattings, pictures ,and etc.Other than that, they know nothing about you,totally. They try to "share" their histories of  their relationships to the "preys" which indirectly gain more loves from the "preys" for being such a "loyal" man in the relationships. Once they get the "preys" , they will make things worse and worst. They will start ignoring the "preys", spreading lies, no more as "loving" as before.They love the teardrops from the "preys". They seem to enjoy breaking those hearts of their "preys" very much.

Seriously,what the hell is wrong with these people?!

One more thing which I still couldn't understand is how can guys ask for sex or persuade the other for making love when they just get into the relationships? If they fail to get permissions, they will try to end the relationships asap. wth. They are just so immature and self-centered. Playing with those hearts are like the targets of their lives. I understand that guys get orgasm very easily because of their sex organs, but still I think that is just an excuse for them to get rid of the so called "orgasm" .

..Be the conductor when you speak with them, and help them stay in tune with the Universe. 

[Day 24]

which is today ,and I have failed to do so. cos normally I was told or persuaded before doing sth, now I don't think I can be the one to conduct them .I need the energy ,wisdom from YOU.

Fyi, I wasn't trying to be subjective.
*There is no such thing as love on the first sight.
*Honestly looking doesn't mean it will reflect on that person at all
*There is no such thing that first love will be your future spouse or the one that loves you the most.

Ciao~

Good

... To inspire others a desire to change for the better is trully noble; but this you can do only by leaving them alone, and becoming more noble yourself. ( Day 21)

I like Day 22 very much. It's Monday tomorrow, chubby is leaving Pg to kangaroo land in the evening. I'll reach Pg in the early morning tomorrow. I am still in the holiday mood, not really wanting to go back to the nerd life,deal with this and that .blablabla. Last night ,have had a great conversation with chubby,not sure to the latter if he felt the same. I was pretty down after talking with dad in the living room [before the call]. Not sure why was it and I didn't want to recall the reason I was so. Before I slept, I have laughed alot . *I like* and I was still smiling tho dad "shouted" me to wake up at 11.30a.m. this morning.

I am officially missing it(moments).

Good is underneath every single thing that appears to be negative.  If we can know that good is all there is, including in a negative situation,Then we will see negative situation transforms into all good. Most people keep the good away from themselves because they label something as ad and of course, that becomes their reality . But there is no bad in the universe; it is just our ability to see things clearly from the bigger perspectives.

Peace comes from knowing that good is all that exist.

(DAY 22)

 Picture says it all

Ciao~

Freed

If you are tense or if you resist to the water, you will sink..Let the tension go and float. (Day 17)

Think thoughts of well being.

Speak words of well-being,

And imagine yourself being well.

(Day 18)

One of the biggest thing you can do to change your circumstances around money is to take ten percent of what you receive and give it away.

This is called spiritual law of tithing, and it is the greatest action you can take to bring more money into your life.
( Day 19)

 Appreciation of what you have brings what you want.

(Day 20)

Have learned to let things go

Have learned to free myself.

Have learned to put "obsession" away from me.

Have learned to play on the safe side. 

Have learned to let the natural to answer the questions.

Seriously ,I need to pick the right mushrooms before I put them into my mouth.

Been poisoned for quite a number of times.

I could only recover in the long run.[dislike]

My worship has been answered.

Bygones must be bygones.

Thanks to Buddha for always able to soothe my heart and soul.
Thanks for the love and care on me.
Thanks for the blessings.

♥♥♥

still have a long way to go,to experience ,to live.

Endless route but limited time.

*You gain strength, courage, and confidence,

by every experience in which you really
stop to look fear in the face.
DO THE THING YOU THINK
YOU CANNOT DO !*

*According to the Chinese calendar,
tomorrow,I am going to be 21year-old.

Ciao~

The book- The Secret

I showed Kor The Secret with my cheeky face an hour ago.

He was like " @.@ Eh, you also have this book? I have finally bought one too. 

Been waiting for 2 years .It's always out of stock."

Me: "Oh,it's my birthday gift"

Kor: " I see,who gave you that?"

Wombat: "her XX... =D"

Kor: " No wonder :D . But how come yours is so different ?*flipped through the pages*

Wombat: " Hers is the daily version. Carinn's aunt been talking about The Secret."

Me: " But Kor, I have people telling me that the ideas in The Secret is just common sense ."

Kor :" Who SAID that? They are just being JEALOUS to see you have a great book as present!"

Me :"..blablablablabla"

Kor: " It's really great if anyone can write those into a book and do you think those "common senses" will come through your mind when you are DOWN, DEPRESSED, LOW SELF-ESTEEM?"

Me: "  I see. :))"

Kor : " I really can't read your book, the words are so tiny and how do you actually flip it?

so mafan,see your expressions.

[cos when I heard a sound when he flipped the book, I said ouch. "

Me : " Like that lol. Flip slowly blablabla.."

Kor: " Wah ,yours is so much expensive than mine. But I prefer mine. Yours troublesome to read. Mine ,one chapter has at least 2 pages."

Me : " It's a gift,my gift :D You can't blame for that."

Kor: " cheh,but Why didn't you take a picture on it,upload & tag him on facebook? "

Me : " I did take pictures when I got it from him.But,...blablabla"

  

In the kitchen

Kor : " Wah, someone got ... a book as her birthday present ! hahaha :D " [in front of mummy]

Me : " Eleh, I did tell mum and show her  The Secret when I came back from Penang :)) "

I am glad that I didn't actually believe others words before believing myself.
From the very first, I never think of it as "common senses". I admit my heart been shaking after hearing what others said about it.  I felt uncomfortable. :(( But in the end, I follow my heart which is the first thought I have had on it .Maybe they're just not the right people to see that. But not Kor & wombat & others.

I have slowly become the MASTER of my LIFE ! ((:

I hope this spirit will follow me forever.

*Dear world & beloved readers,HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & VALENTINES' DAY*

Thanks again, the mAn to the sOn.

2010 January ,4th

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone


As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again


And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you

♥♥♥

Ciao~

Attraction

Everyday we face questions of right and wrong,and the decisions is about whether to take action or stay out of the game. For those choices are listed unclear or we drop our conscious ,follow our instincts and reveal our true characteristics. Somehow, everything is never as it seems.

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre

Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar
 

Persist,persist,persist, and you will reach a point where.....You will become so aware of the words that people speak,especially when they speak the words that they don't want. You will become so aware of the words that you speak. (Day 12)

...When you feel that the law isn't working for you , because you don't have what you want or you are attracting the absence of what you want. (Day 13)

 

Ciao~

Magnificent system

It's true in the saying that "time heals all the wounds".

Physically the healing begins involving

and our body will work with it

When a relationship is injured,

someone heals in a day

others may leave for the rest of their lives.

Sometimes we need to heal ourselves

Your life is a reflection of what you hold inside you, and what you hold inside is always under your control..(Day 9)

Ciao~

Magnificence

I saw a dried chrysanthemum blossoms in a cup of cold water today.
It smelt so uniquely,good.
It reminded me of sth. * It taught me alot*

Day6
#No matter where you are ,
no matter how difficult things might appear to be,
you are always being moved towards magnificence..
Always#

I smell so REVLON now.
It is still growing hard after having a cut 3hours ago.
I am satisfied.
I felt much lighter,less burden now.
:))

Ciao~

results

After much consideration,I think I don't need to write  anything here after reading The Secret..
I felt much better ...
*yes,I am no more indecisive*
I think this blog has added lots of pressures on me
And I have friends, telling me that The Secret is full of common senses.
yes,I knew it.. it;s just I want someone to tell me those common senses and write them out
I thought it will make me better but NO!!

never been so clear till today.
Home is the best remedy for me.
I'm glad I'm at home now.

Conclusion,I think I will write some thoughts when I feel to write..
I don't like to treat it as my daily basis ,which makes me "suffocating".
And thanks to my readers,for reading it all this while.

*I don't give a damn at all on IT!*

 

Ciao~

Feelings

Good morning ..
I need a break from The Secret,and everything...
I just read  Day 3,but I need to have a break from writing it here.
I am having sore throat, backache and knee-ache.
I just realized I am turning "round" in shape.

I really need to consider everything from now on.. 

What am I doing and what I have done..
What is bothering me,what do I care off...
I don't know what I want
I don't know why I am so bothering about what others thought off me
I don't know why I care so much on every single mingle things which is not necessarily to care about.
[which is non of my business]
I don't know why I am so indecisive,
I don't know why I am so grumpy  at times

I have fun and sorrow yesterday.
I've ruined my own bday mood.
But I am glad that I have fun before.
At least, I have the memories that enlighten me before.

When I am happy ,I should remember that the happy mode won't last for long.
When I am sad,I need to remember that the sad mode won't last for long too.
They ain't eternity but least it happens.

The Secret : 
#Worry attracts more worry.
Anxiety attracts more anxiety,
Dissatisfaction attracts more dissatisfaction.

Joy attracts more joy,
Happiness attracts more happiness.
Gratitude attracts more gratitude.#

Yes, I need to change the way I feel inside.
Understand what I need first,
perhaps everything is just illusion.*self-comforting*

*few minutes ago,I said I need a break but now I just wrote sth on Day 3*
*I am glad that I have managed to stop myself from telling others about stuffs.
I prefer to be a "silent "speaker.
*I really need to think about the inside of "ME"
*362 Days to go,362 Daily teachings*
*I am missing wombat very much now [4 months left]*
*I am missing everyone that came across my mind now,those happy part
*relieved.I am feeling better now. 

Tell me what's the love,cos I don't know.

Tell me what's the truth,cos I don't know.

Ciao~

My day

Day 2

2nd of February

Yes,It's my 20th birthday today. I didn't really sleep well last night cos the mosquitoes kept buzzing at my ears and my legs are aching [thanks to the heels,cos I wore it for 7 hours walking around Queensbay Mall,oh,right]

Just before I shut down my phone,I got a few calls to wish me " Happy Birthday" . I got smses and comments on my fb wall. Thanks to all the beautiful people that mind to wish me :)). I received early birthday gifts from manson,bee&boon. thanks again. not sure if they were reading these.

It's really a great day,with good mood. Here's a good sentence to share off on the Day 2 of The Secret :

To change your life FAST,use gratitude to shift your energy. It said that, miracles happen when all the energy is put into gratitude. It taught us to write 100 things we are grateful for every single day till we notice the changes. 

*the FEELING is a great power where we put the words of gratitude into it*

Well,I am not really going to write 100 things that I am grateful today.just 10 will do.

1) I feel grateful to have a caring sis who always stand by me tho she can't stand me at times.

2) I feel grateful to have different friends that treat me differently,cos thanks to them, I am much stronger now and sending the message telling me that friends can't always BE by your side, only YOURSELF.

3) I feel grateful that before my 20th birthday I have become the MASTER of my LIFE.

4) I feel grateful that I was taught to become a better lady by those thoughtful people.

5) I feel grateful that I am short. [cos at least I don't look "gigantic" in heels]

6) I feel grateful to have all those people who mind to celebrate my birthday,who mind to give me presents,who mind to make me happy on my day.

7) I feel grateful that I do smile lots nowadays,

8) I feel grateful that nowadays I do drop tears but they are tears of JOY.

9) I feel grateful that I am born as a elder sister, to make me understand the word"responsibility"

10) I feel grateful that I am the birthday girl for TODAY :))

Ciao~

Master of my life

It's Monday and the first day of February,Well ,tomorrow is my birthday but I don't really expect anything ,just hoping that everything will go well & better till the next coming birthday.
*12 more days till CNY*

DAY 1 in The Secret,it mentioned that the most important thing to do for any person is to LIVE IT. Yes, Live to the MAX. Well, to become the Master of your life, all you need is to LIVE it. Day by day, you will be showered with wisdom ,understandings,etc.

Last night,as usual , wombat and I have our bedtime conversation. She made me realized that I was overpowered by others which I never have noticed about and that I never think of changing my attitudes towards anything that had happened.

Thinking back, what she mentioned was kind of true. I guessed I was just intimidating to know or admit everything. I don't really favour in facing facts and realities. I used to bother so much ,even though they are beyond my "jurisdiction". That's part of the reason I can't LIVE up.

A new month and new day shall bring me towards the meaning of JOY. Shower me with happiness.

Ciao~

Get started

I received my early birthday present from Manson 2days ago. It was really surprising.He came over my hostel to pass the "freshly" bought present with price tags along too,silly boy. Before that,he did ask me whether I will be in hostel ,I have already sensed something awry. But later on, he rang me up, telling me that he need plasters as his finger was bleeding profusely. He sounded  so "pain" . I was in great shock and I almost cried.Thanks again,the man from another mother

The title of the book is " The Secret Daily Teachings" by Rhonda Byrne. The law of attraction is a subject used to explain everything about life. Every single day of the year is represented by each printed page in the book.

I am a full-time degree student.
I stay in the hostel.
I have no helpers or maids to assist me throughout the days.
I have my hands full to do everything by myself.[laundry ,cooking,etc]
I hereby assigned myself a deranged assignment.
Hope it can help,shaping me to become a better person.
No more negative thoughts that used to screw up my days and nights.

Challenge : 365days/ less than 365 days , 365 daily teachings.
Contender : Samantha Sik Wan Zhen

How far she can go ,no one can tell,even herself.

My readings and the next post shall start on Monday after I have read it, which is on the 1st of February 2010.
Deadline shall be on the 1st of February 2010 or earlier.

Ciao~