SoO

FYI,SoO stands for Sociology of Organisations.
I have this lesson from 9a.m -3p.m today.
I thought it would turn out to be another boring one,
somehow it attracted me.
My lecturer who usually teaches psychology &sociology in Uni[s] said sth that attracted me lots today.

" No matter what bad things you have done to the nature or people, karma will tell ,very soon.

If you have done something bad, trust me , you will get to taste the bad return[s] very fast. 

Don't play with  the NATURE. It's a powerful LAW OF ATTRACTION. 

....What ever you have earned or get[$$], remember to give 10 % back from what you have taken/earned. This can bring more money&happiness into your life. 

Treat your money with values ,not like a trash by squeezing or simply leave it aside.

...Everything that happens has reasons lying in it."

*This is what Day 19 had taught me before: 

 One of the biggest things you can do to change your circumstances around money is to take ten percent of what you receive and give it away.*

DAY 28

"A feeling that greater possessions , no matter of what kind they may be,will of themselves bring contentment or happiness, is a misunderstanding. No person,place,or thing can give you happiness. They may give you cause for happiness and a feeling of contentment , but the Joy of Living comes from within."

It's so true that all the emotions come from within .

Only yourself  are the one deciding how the feelings should be for todays & tomorrows.

It has proven to me today.
I'm feeling contented although I have had 7 hours long lecturers, 4hours long in [forgotten what's the name if the cyber cafe:2nd time experience], dinner at Blue Reef with Pan Seared Salmon,totally delightful.
I woke up at 8.37a.m when I have class at 9a.m today. I was still punctual as in I went to the wrong class cos I wasn't being informed earlier on the changes.There were 10 others in the wrong class too. oh ,well.

Earthquake just hit Chile .Is the world ending soon? 2012 ?!=.=

contented.calm.conscious.

Ciao~

A night.A day.

Bonjour.
Last night, Kor and Nee stopped by my hostel to pass me birthday gifts.
3 of us chatted inside the car for like 1 hour + with the engine on.
Technically , I did most of the talkings as usual.
Later on, I was suffering from sore throat and fluid. =.=
Maybe the fault[s] of chopper board's si chuan noodle or Winter warmers' iced mixed fruit cocktail that I have had in the evening . *sigh*

Day 27
To create your tomorrow, go over your day tonight when you are in bed just before you fall asleep, and feel gratitude for the good moments. If there was something you wanted to happen differently, replay in your mind the way you wanted it to go. As you fall asleep, say " I will sleep deeply and wake up full of energy. Tomorrow is going to be the most beautiful day of my life."

Just in time, it's bed time now ,for me, I have morning class to catch tomorrow,on Saturday.
I will try  hard to go over my day as in my brain is tearing me apart,fluid,sore throat. =.=
Looking at Leo calendar 2010,The  Secret, the bracelet & the butterfly hair accessory ,crystal dolphin& a medium-sized bee girl soft toy,pictures,etc.., make me feel much gratitude than ever for living so long in this world. Now, I have to get rid of these diseases ,if not how am I going to enjoy my tomorrows?!

*Last night,Kor complained that I have too many requests,too demanding esp to..,
I do understand that I have to change this habit by now [give me a break]=.= :))
*She told me,"you will feel better if everything never had happened ,everything starting from 0."
But I feel nothing,just plain not sad,not happy, ordinary.
I feel much better than ever tho I am invaded by diseases.
She just won't believe in me.

I wonder if I am ever.., at least a segment?

or not even a segment?

Good night.

Ciao~

Excuse

I wonder how can some guys[aged between 19-22+] enjoy cyber relationships so much? (They have broke up with the others within 2 months,and they manage to hunt other "preys" to fulfill them.)They make you on cloud nine by flattering in public[online] ,calling you from overseas,telling the whole word that how much they love you, how much they need you when they barely know you or meet you up in person.

Fyi,they get your details through facebook,chattings, pictures ,and etc.Other than that, they know nothing about you,totally. They try to "share" their histories of  their relationships to the "preys" which indirectly gain more loves from the "preys" for being such a "loyal" man in the relationships. Once they get the "preys" , they will make things worse and worst. They will start ignoring the "preys", spreading lies, no more as "loving" as before.They love the teardrops from the "preys". They seem to enjoy breaking those hearts of their "preys" very much.

Seriously,what the hell is wrong with these people?!

One more thing which I still couldn't understand is how can guys ask for sex or persuade the other for making love when they just get into the relationships? If they fail to get permissions, they will try to end the relationships asap. wth. They are just so immature and self-centered. Playing with those hearts are like the targets of their lives. I understand that guys get orgasm very easily because of their sex organs, but still I think that is just an excuse for them to get rid of the so called "orgasm" .

..Be the conductor when you speak with them, and help them stay in tune with the Universe. 

[Day 24]

which is today ,and I have failed to do so. cos normally I was told or persuaded before doing sth, now I don't think I can be the one to conduct them .I need the energy ,wisdom from YOU.

Fyi, I wasn't trying to be subjective.
*There is no such thing as love on the first sight.
*Honestly looking doesn't mean it will reflect on that person at all
*There is no such thing that first love will be your future spouse or the one that loves you the most.

Ciao~

Good

... To inspire others a desire to change for the better is trully noble; but this you can do only by leaving them alone, and becoming more noble yourself. ( Day 21)

I like Day 22 very much. It's Monday tomorrow, chubby is leaving Pg to kangaroo land in the evening. I'll reach Pg in the early morning tomorrow. I am still in the holiday mood, not really wanting to go back to the nerd life,deal with this and that .blablabla. Last night ,have had a great conversation with chubby,not sure to the latter if he felt the same. I was pretty down after talking with dad in the living room [before the call]. Not sure why was it and I didn't want to recall the reason I was so. Before I slept, I have laughed alot . *I like* and I was still smiling tho dad "shouted" me to wake up at 11.30a.m. this morning.

I am officially missing it(moments).

Good is underneath every single thing that appears to be negative.  If we can know that good is all there is, including in a negative situation,Then we will see negative situation transforms into all good. Most people keep the good away from themselves because they label something as ad and of course, that becomes their reality . But there is no bad in the universe; it is just our ability to see things clearly from the bigger perspectives.

Peace comes from knowing that good is all that exist.

(DAY 22)

 Picture says it all

Ciao~

Freed

If you are tense or if you resist to the water, you will sink..Let the tension go and float. (Day 17)

Think thoughts of well being.

Speak words of well-being,

And imagine yourself being well.

(Day 18)

One of the biggest thing you can do to change your circumstances around money is to take ten percent of what you receive and give it away.

This is called spiritual law of tithing, and it is the greatest action you can take to bring more money into your life.
( Day 19)

 Appreciation of what you have brings what you want.

(Day 20)

Have learned to let things go

Have learned to free myself.

Have learned to put "obsession" away from me.

Have learned to play on the safe side. 

Have learned to let the natural to answer the questions.

Seriously ,I need to pick the right mushrooms before I put them into my mouth.

Been poisoned for quite a number of times.

I could only recover in the long run.[dislike]

My worship has been answered.

Bygones must be bygones.

Thanks to Buddha for always able to soothe my heart and soul.
Thanks for the love and care on me.
Thanks for the blessings.

♥♥♥

still have a long way to go,to experience ,to live.

Endless route but limited time.

*You gain strength, courage, and confidence,

by every experience in which you really
stop to look fear in the face.
DO THE THING YOU THINK
YOU CANNOT DO !*

*According to the Chinese calendar,
tomorrow,I am going to be 21year-old.

Ciao~

The book- The Secret

I showed Kor The Secret with my cheeky face an hour ago.

He was like " @.@ Eh, you also have this book? I have finally bought one too. 

Been waiting for 2 years .It's always out of stock."

Me: "Oh,it's my birthday gift"

Kor: " I see,who gave you that?"

Wombat: "her XX... =D"

Kor: " No wonder :D . But how come yours is so different ?*flipped through the pages*

Wombat: " Hers is the daily version. Carinn's aunt been talking about The Secret."

Me: " But Kor, I have people telling me that the ideas in The Secret is just common sense ."

Kor :" Who SAID that? They are just being JEALOUS to see you have a great book as present!"

Me :"..blablablablabla"

Kor: " It's really great if anyone can write those into a book and do you think those "common senses" will come through your mind when you are DOWN, DEPRESSED, LOW SELF-ESTEEM?"

Me: "  I see. :))"

Kor : " I really can't read your book, the words are so tiny and how do you actually flip it?

so mafan,see your expressions.

[cos when I heard a sound when he flipped the book, I said ouch. "

Me : " Like that lol. Flip slowly blablabla.."

Kor: " Wah ,yours is so much expensive than mine. But I prefer mine. Yours troublesome to read. Mine ,one chapter has at least 2 pages."

Me : " It's a gift,my gift :D You can't blame for that."

Kor: " cheh,but Why didn't you take a picture on it,upload & tag him on facebook? "

Me : " I did take pictures when I got it from him.But,...blablabla"

  

In the kitchen

Kor : " Wah, someone got ... a book as her birthday present ! hahaha :D " [in front of mummy]

Me : " Eleh, I did tell mum and show her  The Secret when I came back from Penang :)) "

I am glad that I didn't actually believe others words before believing myself.
From the very first, I never think of it as "common senses". I admit my heart been shaking after hearing what others said about it.  I felt uncomfortable. :(( But in the end, I follow my heart which is the first thought I have had on it .Maybe they're just not the right people to see that. But not Kor & wombat & others.

I have slowly become the MASTER of my LIFE ! ((:

I hope this spirit will follow me forever.

*Dear world & beloved readers,HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & VALENTINES' DAY*

Thanks again, the mAn to the sOn.

2010 January ,4th

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone


As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again


And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you

♥♥♥

Ciao~

Attraction

Everyday we face questions of right and wrong,and the decisions is about whether to take action or stay out of the game. For those choices are listed unclear or we drop our conscious ,follow our instincts and reveal our true characteristics. Somehow, everything is never as it seems.

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre

Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar
 

Persist,persist,persist, and you will reach a point where.....You will become so aware of the words that people speak,especially when they speak the words that they don't want. You will become so aware of the words that you speak. (Day 12)

...When you feel that the law isn't working for you , because you don't have what you want or you are attracting the absence of what you want. (Day 13)

 

Ciao~

Magnificent system

It's true in the saying that "time heals all the wounds".

Physically the healing begins involving

and our body will work with it

When a relationship is injured,

someone heals in a day

others may leave for the rest of their lives.

Sometimes we need to heal ourselves

Your life is a reflection of what you hold inside you, and what you hold inside is always under your control..(Day 9)

Ciao~

Magnificence

I saw a dried chrysanthemum blossoms in a cup of cold water today.
It smelt so uniquely,good.
It reminded me of sth. * It taught me alot*

Day6
#No matter where you are ,
no matter how difficult things might appear to be,
you are always being moved towards magnificence..
Always#

I smell so REVLON now.
It is still growing hard after having a cut 3hours ago.
I am satisfied.
I felt much lighter,less burden now.
:))

Ciao~

results

After much consideration,I think I don't need to write  anything here after reading The Secret..
I felt much better ...
*yes,I am no more indecisive*
I think this blog has added lots of pressures on me
And I have friends, telling me that The Secret is full of common senses.
yes,I knew it.. it;s just I want someone to tell me those common senses and write them out
I thought it will make me better but NO!!

never been so clear till today.
Home is the best remedy for me.
I'm glad I'm at home now.

Conclusion,I think I will write some thoughts when I feel to write..
I don't like to treat it as my daily basis ,which makes me "suffocating".
And thanks to my readers,for reading it all this while.

*I don't give a damn at all on IT!*

 

Ciao~

Feelings

Good morning ..
I need a break from The Secret,and everything...
I just read  Day 3,but I need to have a break from writing it here.
I am having sore throat, backache and knee-ache.
I just realized I am turning "round" in shape.

I really need to consider everything from now on.. 

What am I doing and what I have done..
What is bothering me,what do I care off...
I don't know what I want
I don't know why I am so bothering about what others thought off me
I don't know why I care so much on every single mingle things which is not necessarily to care about.
[which is non of my business]
I don't know why I am so indecisive,
I don't know why I am so grumpy  at times

I have fun and sorrow yesterday.
I've ruined my own bday mood.
But I am glad that I have fun before.
At least, I have the memories that enlighten me before.

When I am happy ,I should remember that the happy mode won't last for long.
When I am sad,I need to remember that the sad mode won't last for long too.
They ain't eternity but least it happens.

The Secret : 
#Worry attracts more worry.
Anxiety attracts more anxiety,
Dissatisfaction attracts more dissatisfaction.

Joy attracts more joy,
Happiness attracts more happiness.
Gratitude attracts more gratitude.#

Yes, I need to change the way I feel inside.
Understand what I need first,
perhaps everything is just illusion.*self-comforting*

*few minutes ago,I said I need a break but now I just wrote sth on Day 3*
*I am glad that I have managed to stop myself from telling others about stuffs.
I prefer to be a "silent "speaker.
*I really need to think about the inside of "ME"
*362 Days to go,362 Daily teachings*
*I am missing wombat very much now [4 months left]*
*I am missing everyone that came across my mind now,those happy part
*relieved.I am feeling better now. 

Tell me what's the love,cos I don't know.

Tell me what's the truth,cos I don't know.

Ciao~

My day

Day 2

2nd of February

Yes,It's my 20th birthday today. I didn't really sleep well last night cos the mosquitoes kept buzzing at my ears and my legs are aching [thanks to the heels,cos I wore it for 7 hours walking around Queensbay Mall,oh,right]

Just before I shut down my phone,I got a few calls to wish me " Happy Birthday" . I got smses and comments on my fb wall. Thanks to all the beautiful people that mind to wish me :)). I received early birthday gifts from manson,bee&boon. thanks again. not sure if they were reading these.

It's really a great day,with good mood. Here's a good sentence to share off on the Day 2 of The Secret :

To change your life FAST,use gratitude to shift your energy. It said that, miracles happen when all the energy is put into gratitude. It taught us to write 100 things we are grateful for every single day till we notice the changes. 

*the FEELING is a great power where we put the words of gratitude into it*

Well,I am not really going to write 100 things that I am grateful today.just 10 will do.

1) I feel grateful to have a caring sis who always stand by me tho she can't stand me at times.

2) I feel grateful to have different friends that treat me differently,cos thanks to them, I am much stronger now and sending the message telling me that friends can't always BE by your side, only YOURSELF.

3) I feel grateful that before my 20th birthday I have become the MASTER of my LIFE.

4) I feel grateful that I was taught to become a better lady by those thoughtful people.

5) I feel grateful that I am short. [cos at least I don't look "gigantic" in heels]

6) I feel grateful to have all those people who mind to celebrate my birthday,who mind to give me presents,who mind to make me happy on my day.

7) I feel grateful that I do smile lots nowadays,

8) I feel grateful that nowadays I do drop tears but they are tears of JOY.

9) I feel grateful that I am born as a elder sister, to make me understand the word"responsibility"

10) I feel grateful that I am the birthday girl for TODAY :))

Ciao~

Master of my life

It's Monday and the first day of February,Well ,tomorrow is my birthday but I don't really expect anything ,just hoping that everything will go well & better till the next coming birthday.
*12 more days till CNY*

DAY 1 in The Secret,it mentioned that the most important thing to do for any person is to LIVE IT. Yes, Live to the MAX. Well, to become the Master of your life, all you need is to LIVE it. Day by day, you will be showered with wisdom ,understandings,etc.

Last night,as usual , wombat and I have our bedtime conversation. She made me realized that I was overpowered by others which I never have noticed about and that I never think of changing my attitudes towards anything that had happened.

Thinking back, what she mentioned was kind of true. I guessed I was just intimidating to know or admit everything. I don't really favour in facing facts and realities. I used to bother so much ,even though they are beyond my "jurisdiction". That's part of the reason I can't LIVE up.

A new month and new day shall bring me towards the meaning of JOY. Shower me with happiness.

Ciao~